christabel: her thoughts, songs and doodles

birthday blog

2007-12-29T06:32:00.000-08:00

december 26, 2007

as gino said.. "welcome to the 19s club", hehe.

as usual, our Jimenez Christmas party did not end until the clock striked 12 and birthday ko na. before i was able to make parinig over the microphone na birthday ko na nga, naunahan ako ng mga dear pinsan ko by singing aloud.. surprise, the happy birthday song, hehe.

so how was my birthday? Masaya :) Kasi almost everyone I care for, my family and friends, remembered to greet me either thru text or friendster. Yep, I've come to realize na, simple lang naman kaligayan ko sa bday ko, ang mabati nila or niyo, hehe. Maybe because I also love remembering and greeting the people dear to my heart. Overall, it's nice to feel cared for, or just even remembered, by the people you care for.

xempre may catch din un birthday ko.. haha.. my least favorite day of the month ay sumakto sa birthday ko.. 'coz i define the definition of dysmenorrhea, hehe, kainis.

so dahil dun, i was just lying down almost the whole day until mga 4pm when i've decided na ayoko matapos ang araw na ito that way, hehe. so i decided that we'll have our dinner at Tatay and Nanay's house (grandparents from my mom's side) then go to Trinoma with my cousins.

Nakakatuwa kasi when I entered the dining room area, kinantahan ako ni Tatay and Nanay ng birthday song, sabay pa sila ha, hehe. May hangover pa, I guess, from the karaoke the night before.

Dinnertime.. my cousin AJ led the prayer for me before we started to eat. :) After nun, may dumaan na bagyo sa dinner table.. and the lasagna, which Mommy cooked, was gone in a few minutes. Grabe, ang takaw namin, haha.

Then we went to Trinoma.. supposedly manonood kami ng Sakal, Sakali.. pero dahil super daming tao, naubusan kami ng tickets.. So we went to Timezone Arena instead.

(from top left, clockwise) That's me, AJ, my brother Ezra and Kuya David drifting :D

(from top left, clockwise) Yanyan, Chelsea, AJ and Jarrell playing

Sabi ko gusto ko magkaraoke but the boys said they do not want to sing.. pero hindi na nila binitawan ang mic and songbook either.. Haha.. :)

The P500 powercard load was gone in less than an hour and ginutom nanaman kami.. so we went to Krispy Kreme..

(from top left, clockwise) the lasagna during dinnertime, assorted doughnuts (the birthday cake alternative, hehe) and my cadbury from tito and tita -feb 29-, haha.

before going home, group picS muna.

Bilang sa isang kamay ko ang birthdays ko na hindi ko sila kasama magcelebrate :)

I thank God for the 19 years of my life so far. :) I have my relationship with God, I'm blessed with my family and friends, i'm currently a student and bonus na lang ang material things.

Last teen year, this should be fun, hahaha. Next year, I already have something in mind on how to celebrate it. Something a little more selfless, God-willing :)

Christmas Spirit

2007-12-01T00:05:00.000-08:00

25 days to go.. yep.. 25 days na lang.. and birthday ko na! haha.. kala Christmas eh noh.. ok fine, 24 days na lang Christmas na.. tapos birthday ko na.. haha.. kulit :)

december na..

december 1.. so exactly one year ago, finally nagdecide ako magdebut.. more of mini debut since small party lang.. and since 2 weeks to prepare before that debut (dec.15 ako nagcelebrate, maaga since my friends from UP will be going back to their provinces soon), na kay mommy ang stress, hahaha.. pati ba naman sa 18th bday celebration ko.. late pa rin ako magdecide at cramming nanaman.. well, that's me! :P

last month of the year 2007.. ang bilis.. 25 days na lang and i'll be turning one year up.. hmmm..

anyway, i've always loved december. really. may something about december na nagpapaexcite sa akin and may ibang happy feeling once i think of december and now that it's here, the feeling is also back. You're probably thinking, "Oh, she's getting the Christmas spirit."

But as I've done my daily reading on Daily Bread last night, the Bible Scripture was on Philippians 2:1-11 and the title of the reading was "Christmas Spirit".

Here it is:

How would you define "the Christmas spirit?" Would it be a friendly smile between strangers, the sound of familiar carols, a tree with twinkling lights in a sea of brightly wrapped packages, or just that good feeling you get this time of the year?

(Okay, guilty ako sa mga ito, toink!)

None of these elements captures the real meaning of the phrase. They represent feelings that may be a response to the commercialism that distorts the real spirit of Christmas.

J.I. Packer goes to the heart of this matter in his book Knowing God. He writes, "We talk glibly of the Christmas spirit, rarely meaning more by this than sentimental jollity... It ought to mean the reproducing in human lives of the [temperament] of HIM who for our sakes became poor,... the spirit of those who, like their Master, live their whole lives on the principle of making themselves poor - spending and being spent - to enrich their fellowmen, giving time, thought, care and concern to do good to others... in whatever way there seems need."

In Philippians 2, Paul described the God of heaven and earth as laying aside His divine glory and becoming our servant by dying on the cross for our sins. Then he urged us to duplicate that same mind of humble service to others. That's the true Christmas spirit.

If we look beyond the manger
To the cross of Calvary,
We will know the reason Christmas
Brings such joy to you and me.

The spirit of Christmas giving should be seen in all our living.

******

The point is, I think, hindi naman masama maexcite sa family reunions, gifts, shopping, all those food, decors and all the fun things.. but we should always remember *first* the Christ in CHRISTmas.. If Jesus wasn't born in this world, if He didn't become human and die and live again and save us from our sins.. Christmas would be nothing.

i pray that we'll all be having a meaningful CHRISTmas season (not just day) this year! :)

huling hirit: i have read Ms. Bianca Gonzales' blog on happy love-giving this christmas!, which was also nice :)

this time, wanted: shop 7!!!!!

2007-11-09T07:38:00.000-08:00

november 9 -- first day of classes, 12 units kaninang umaga, 15 units na ngayon, woohoo, haha..

thank GOD, sa wakas, may improvement na enrollment ko..

una: Acctg1 -- may new section na for us! woohoo! kahit nasayang oras namin knna pumila sa BA, nakita ko ngayon sa CRS un sinabi samn na Saturday class, 9am-12pm.. so that means magkaka-saturday class na ko for the first time in my college years.. haha.. better that than delayed :D

2nd: artstud2 -- ano ang probability (ano daw??? hehehehe) na mabigay samn ni charm ang inenlist namin na GE.. at same day and time pa kami.. pero different sections! huhuhu.. oh well, at least may GE na.. and after 2 sems na walang GE, eto na ulit.. ang prof ni charm ay si ma'am romy fay gumba.. prof ni ayla before.. at nun sumama ako sa kanila sa sagada fieldtrip nila.. hehe.. TBA pa sakn..

SHOP 7!! medyo complicated pa kung pano ko makuha yun.. Lord, pano po?? summer na lang ba? un monday na sched? help.. favor po.. thank you po :D

Cast all your cares upon Him for HE cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7

****edit**** Cnancel ko yung ArtStud2! waah.. kasi naman, i've forgotten that i still need one english course.. and since last AH ko na supposedly yung Artstud2, masasayang lang siya since english nga dapat un last AH ko.. first time ko magcancel by the way, haha.. and it was, as usual, quite a hassle.. getting a form, going to the prof, going to your adviser, getting the dean's sig, paying at the cashier, going to CRS office to have the class cancelled online, submitting the paper to OUR and finally, giving the prof her copy of the form. So, i've only got 15 units this sem.

wanted: new acctg1 section!

2007-11-07T23:27:00.000-08:00

naranasan niyo na ba maglakad from eng'g to ba.. tapos ba to eng'g.. tapos eng'g to ba ulit? sa ilalim ng araw (buti na lang puno ng mga puno ang acad oval) at mala-deja vu ang dating dahil sa bawat lakad mo, may something similar na nangyari.. pati chain of thoughts mo habang naglalakad eh pareho each way. yan ang nangyayari pag mag-isa ka naglalakad.

nov 8, 2007, batch run para sa mga 06 students kaya una, wala ako halos nakitang 05 at pangalawa, kaya walang sumama sakn mag-asikaso nun sa acctg1. may konting bitterness pero i had to fight it, just give it to God and pray na... ganito ganyan :)

bago pumuntang Educ para mag-enrol, binaba ako ni mama sa eng'g.. punta ko ng ME dept.. answered prayer # 1, andun pa ang petition list for Shop7. Kahit hindi ako pwede sa parehong sched, sige sign pa rin, baka igive up ko na lang un dose ko.

punta ko iE dept. answered prayer # 2, napirmahan na ni ma'am gina petition letter namin. kinuha ko na rin un page 2 ng petition list na nakapost sa dept.

Ano ung something similar sa bawat paglakad ko between eng’g and bA? Ang pagiging walking UP information center ko, hehe.

#1 Eng’g to BA:

habang naglalakad sa may tapat ng Law.. tumigil ang isang light blue na honda civic *ata* malapit sakn..
Kuya: Miss, alam mo ba kung san yung Law Library?
Ana (napaisip, *Asan nga ba un?*): Ay, eto po yun Law (sabay turo)
Kuya: *nagbigay ng facial expression na "Oh tapos? Asan un Library?*
Ana: Ah anjan din po ata yung library (stupid answer? Haha.. After half a second) Ah nasa likod po pala un Library ng Law, directly sa likod neto.
Kuya: Ah ok, thank you, thank you. *umalis na*
Ana: *tiningnan kung liliko si Kuya, oo, lumiko, very good*

#2 BA to Eng’g

Sa may Main Lib, across NEC.
May humintong green na van, di ko napansin kung anong model, hehehe.
Kuya: Miss, san yung Gonzales Hall?
Ana: Gonzales? (*anak ng tokwa, eto nnman tayo sa mga Hall – hall.. Gonzales, alam ko yun eh.. Itong library ba un? )
Buti na lang nagsalita ulit si Kuya.
Kuya: Yung library daw?
Ana: (nabuhayan, haha) Ah, eto po yun oh, *turo sa Main Lib na katabi lang namin* Yan po ang Main Lib, Gonzales Hall.
Kuya: Ah eto ba yun.. Sige sige salamat..
Ana: (tumuloy na sa Eng’g.. nagiisip kung tama nga ba na Gonzales yun.. tama ata)

# 3 Eng’g to BA ulit

Naglakad ulit, as usual. Pagkalagpas ng Main Lib, isang red na Vios ang huminto. Bumaba ang bintana at this time, babae naman.
Miss: Excuse me?
Ana: *humarap ako. At imbis na sumagot ng oo, medyo ngumiti na lang ako. Katuwa/Katawa, ngumiti din siya, haha, the power of smile? Hahaha*
Miss: San yung jfkjdsk – logy?
Ana: Ano po?
Miss: San yung sfklO – logy?
Ana: *confused* Ano po, astrology?
Miss: Hindi, sociology.
Ana: ahhhh.. *haha, asan nga ba un? Naisip ko Palma Hall Annex, hehe, psychology? Baka banda dun din socio*
Ana: ahmmm.. liko po kayo jan.. ah, actually, sa katapat po natin ngayon pero sa kabilang side (ng Acad Oval)
Miss: ah u-uturn ako jan? *tinuro un acad oval*
Ana: Opo, hanapin niyo po un Palma Hall Annex *tama ba? Baka*
Miss: cge salamat.
Ana: (habang naglalakad, tinitingnan kung liliko nga un Vios, okay lumiko, kaya na niya yun)

Kung bumalik kaya ako ng Eng’g, may magtatanong ulit.. hehe..

Pagdating sa BA, pawis na kasi nainitan sa paglalakad. Sabay pasok sa office ni Dr. Yu na aircon, lamig. Perfect, matutuyuan ako ng likod, baka magkasakit nnman ako neto. Buti na lang, andun si Ate Isay, my friend from church at si Em, former co-math major, kaya medyo comfortable ako at ndi feeling loner habang naghihintay so Answered prayer # 3.

Nang kinausap ko na si sir Yu, grabe, ang bait! Yun ang Answered prayer # 4. Super bait. Alam mong pinapakinggan ka at ndi ka minamadali na mag-explain. Ndi tulad sa **** *****, hehe. Inexplain ko pangangailangan namin for Acctg1. Binuksan niya sa computer niya yung sections sa crs. At pareho kami nagulat. Ang dami pang slots!

Sir: Oh, 40 slots, 15 pa lang enlisted. Oh ilan pa pwede dun?
Ana: Ah, 35, ay, 25 pa sir *mentally naisip, 36 kaming nangagailangan*
Sir: *parang nabasa utak ko* Oh, isang section pa lang yun. Magbukas pa tayo nung isa. Oh, 35 slots, wala pang enlisted.
Ana: Eh sir, bat sa crs, sarado na? As in, closed na po nakalagay, ndi na talaga pwede mag-enlist,
Sir: talaga? eh bakit dito, bukas na bukas pa *mukhang nagtataka din si sir, ndi sarcastic at mukhang naniniwala sa student, di tulad ng iba, lam mo na* Sige, tawagan ko si Boncodin kung tatanggapin niya kayo *kasi NCPAG students ang under sa kanya, sabay kuha ng cellphone niya*
Kaya lang may embarrasing moment ako, hehe
Sir: Teka, kilala mo yang si Boncodin?
Ana: *lost* Po? ndi po.
Sir: Yan ang dati nating department head *o secretary ba term niya? limot ko na* para sa Budget!
Ana: *pahiya, hehe, saka lang naisip na kaya pala familiar un name*
Ana: Ah oo nga, kaya po pala familiar un apilido
*whatever Ana, hindi naman ako clueless about sa government, pero eto pa nasaktong tanong sakn*
Sir: oo! bigatin yan!
Sir: Anyway, eto pwede mo gawin. Punta ka sa dept ninyo, tanungin mo kung papayagan kayong sa AIT or NCPAG kumuha ng Acctg1. Pag pwede, punta ka sa NCPAG, dun ka magtanong kung pano kayo makakapasok sa Acctg1 nila.
Sir: pag nagkaproblema, o, eto number ko, may scratch ka pa diyan? O eto, 091.......... Tawagan mo ko kung sakali, pero wag mo ikakakalat yang number, pag nagkaproblema lang sa pagkuha ng acctg1 niyo.

Paglabas ko ng office, medyo nagpanic ako. Kaya ayoko asikasuhin toh mag-isa eh! Sino naman kakausapin ko sa NCPAG? Ni ndi pa nga ako nakakatapak dun eh.. Oh well, para san pa ang prayers the night before kung maduduwag din ako ngayon. Eng’g na lang muna.

Pagdating sa Eng’g, nakita ko agad c jem! Answered prayer # 5! Since 06 siya, pwede xa mag-open ng CRS account niya. Pinatingin ko yung Acctg1 kung open na ba yung mga sections.

Tapos nagtext c Paula. Sabi ko tawagan na lang ako, line naman siya, hehehe at madami din ako sasabihin.

Tapos punta ko sa dept para tanungin kung pwede kami Ndi sa BA mag-acctg1 kung ndi sa AIT at NCPAG. Tada! Ndi daw pwede! Ngek ngek.. so.. ndi na ko pupunta sa NCPAG since bawal pala kami dun? Eh punung-puno na yung acctg1 sa BA.. ndi pwede toh!

Balik ako sa BA. Xempre, naglakad nnman.

Nakita ko si Em ulit sa may pagpasok ng BA. Dahil mag-isa lang ako, super atat ako makahanap ng makakausap. Buti na lang super tanong si Em kung bakit andun ulit ako sa college nila, hahaha.

Pagpasok ng office, pila ulit, pero aircon naman. Sige, matutuyo nnman pawis ko, oh well. In connection sa Answered Prayer # 3, andun c Carlo, friend ko from elementary days, hehe, so ayos, may kausap nnman ako.

Pagpasok sa office ni sir…
Ana: Sir.. ako po ulit, yun nagpepetition for acctg1. *paawa look ng konti, haha*
Sir: *todo smile, buti pa siya masaya, hehe* O, ano na nangyari? Okay na?
Ana: Naku sir, sabi po sa department namin, bawal daw po kami na sa AIT at NCPAG kukuha ng Acctg1.
Sir: Naku! Ganun ba?
Ana: Pano po yun sir *paawa look na talaga, haha*
Sir: Eh no choice tayo.. mukhang magbubukas na talaga ko
Ana: *parang baliw, from paawa look to todo smile, haha, pinigil ko naman*
Sir: (kinausap yun nakapila sa likod ko) Teka lang ha, wait lang kayo, asikasuhin ko na muna ito *Wooh! Sa wakas.. may mag-aasikaso na.. *
So ayun, punta kami sa other office ng BA, oo kasama pa tlga ako, haha, nag-ask si sir dun sa parang secretary kung what rooms pa pwede, what time, etc. Nakakakita na ko ng liwanag, haha.
Sir: O ayan, mukhang may room na. So mamaya or bukas sa CRS, tingnan niyo na lang yung bagong section. Online enlistment ulit ang pagkuha bukas.
Balik kami sa office niya.
Ang problem na lang daw ay yung teacher, kung may available sa oras na gusto namin.
Sir: At kung ilang students kayo, pag konti lang, baka iclose na lang namin.
Ana: Sir kailangan ba 100 din?! *since 100 un isang acctg1 class sa BA*
Sir: *natawa* Hindi naman 100.
Ana: Yang 36 sir? Most likely sure na yan.
Sir: Ayan siguro, 36, okay na yan.
Wooh, answered prayer # 6. Sana matuloy! Sana magka-acctg1 na kami…..

scary 27..

2007-11-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

yes, ie27.
as i have written here before, yes, i did pass, thank GOD!
pero madami ang naka-4.0.. kwatro.. so nagremovals sila last monday..
at kanina lang lumabas un results..
sa dami2 ng nagremovals (according to charm, puno ang P&G, one seat apart)..
isa lang ang pumasa!
yes! would you believe that?! sa dami2 ng umaaasa pumasa and go on with their lives
isa lang ang pumasa, bagsak na yung iba.
i truly felt awful for them, since madami sa kanila kakilala ko and one of them
my close friend.
sabi nga ni patrick ".. kaya ang daming nakasimangot sa dept kanina"
malamang ='(
at sabi naman ni charm, un katabi niya sa pre-advising, d na kinaya, umiyak na
sa harap ni ma'am michay.. and i don't blame her at all..
one year delay na kasi agad pag bumagsak sa 27..
seasonal kasi subjects sa IE..
at madaming sumunod na major na may prereq na ie27..
kainis..
i really feel bad for them.. and I think most of those who passed do too..
this is it, ang time na kinakatakutan namin nun umpisa ng sem..
na "makakaltas" din ang aming batch at mga 1/3 at least ang mawawala sa regular standing..
pero hindi ibig sabihin na okay na buhay ko, since pumasa na ko.
umpisa pa lang ito. ie28 is another hurdle to pass.. oh Lord, Help me po..
i really can't do this alone..

Joy Unspeakable?

2007-10-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

Yes, because God helped me with my error! :D

I just finished playing the piano for "Joy Unspeakable", along with the brass, during the offering in Church kanina. It was one of the few times na mas maayos un pagtugtog ko sa 8am service kaysa sa 1030am! waah.. hehe.. *labo noh, iyak, tawa, hehe*

May na-miss ata ako na 2 measures/1 chord kaya nauna ako.. pero THANK GOD medyo narinig ko na "parang iba na naririnig ko, at ndi na kami nagmamatch na brass! *konting panic*" Tapos ayun, inulit ko na lang un 1 chord para ndi na ako mauna and sabay na ulit. Again, thank you LORD, it worked :D Nung 8am ayos, perfect, hehe, I think, kasi yun yung binubulong nila Kuya "Brass" after namin tumugtog eh, hehe. Katuwa kasi parang medyo may konting kaba din pala sila before or while playing, so I'm no different pala :)

nun 1030am presentation ako unang napanod ni yanyan, my cousin. gulat nga ako na 1st time pala niya, sayang medyo sablay. hehe.. oh well, okay lang naman kay Lord un konting mali, di Po ba? hehe..

and for other news..... i have another addition to my g-clef collection! haha.. an off-shoulder blouse from circle c! P175 :D ang daldal nga ni ate (actually mga ka-age ni mama) na nagbebenta eh, hehe. will upload pics soon! ganito kulay nun blouse, this font, parang fatigue :D

and I now have a cd for Diner Dash2 and other Y! games! yey... :D

first band practice

2007-10-26T00:41:00.000-07:00

kahapon, hehe.. not actually band... ano ba..

basta kasi at church, I play for God with the brass band every last Sunday of the month.. tawag sa amin or sa kanila, brass band, eh ndi naman kasi brass ang piano db, hehe..

anyway, first time na nagtawag ng practice si Tito Edd, usually kasi kami lang 2 nagppractice kasama un sequencer na ginagawa niya tapos on the spot na pagdating ng Sunday with the brass people.. usually 3 or 4 lang sila.. trumpet.. sax.. ganun..

pero kahapon, Thursday, I practiced along with them and it was something new.. and it felt good actually, hehe.. db Lord? God knows how contented my heart was.. I was thinking "now this is something I wanna keep on doing".. we hardly feel that way about something, don't we? Well, in my case, I hardly do kaya ayun, there was pretty much a lightness to my step after practice :D

at take note, my small "allowance" pa kami, i was actually surprised, hehe.

Lord, sana po maging perfect or at least good ang aming performance sa Sunday. For Your Glory! :)

definition of sembreak

2007-10-26T00:33:00.000-07:00

s - sleepful nights
e - exam free days
m - morning smiles
b - "batugan" mode
r - restful afternoons
e - endless gimik
a - ablazing energy flame
k - "kawawa" 'alang baon

hahaha.. got this thru text from charm.. i super agree.. feel na feel ko..
nun october 19 nga pla nagstart sembreak ko, hehe.. eto with my comments naman.,.

s - sleepful nights (ndi nga ako makatulog eh.. hehe.. nagiging 'bampira' na daw ako, sabi ni mommy)
e - exam free days
m - morning smiles (no more "late na(naman) ako!" tuwing umaga)
b - "batugan" mode
r - restful afternoons (internet.. tv.. reading.. hmmm..)
e - endless gimik (wala nga eh.. i wanna go somewhere.. out of town.. haha)
a - ablazing energy flame (exagge, hehe)
k - "kawawa" 'alang baon (correct! pulubi mode, hehe)

What Major is Right for You?

2007-10-26T00:10:00.001-07:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
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You scored as Accounting/Finance/Marketing

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Accounting, Finance, Economics, Marketing, or related majors (e.g., Computer/Management Information Systems (CIS or MIS), Entrepreneurship, International Business, Operations Management, Public Administration, Real Estate, Risk Management, Sports Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

88%

Mathematics/Statistics

75%

Psychology/Sociology

69%

Education/Counseling

63%

HR/BusinessManagement

56%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

56%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

56%

Visual&PerformingArts

44%

English/Journalism/Comm

44%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

44%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

44%

Religion/Theology

38%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

31%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

13%

i'm a bleeder, literally

2007-10-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

haha, kasi naman binunutan ako almost nine hours ago already at eto, nagbbleed pa rin ako.. huhuhu..

less than a week ago, i donated blood and eto naman ngaun, i'm "losing" blood again, hahaha.. parang naririnig ko ang tono ng mga british when they say "bloody", haha.

si tita nette din daw, my mom's youngest sister, literally a bleeder din :D

ie27!

2007-10-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

passed!! 2.75!!! wooooh!! THANK YOU, GOD! super!

ie27 kasi.. probability and statistics for industrial engineers.. ang subject na maraming nabibiktima.. ang hirap kasi.. at pag binagsak, one year delay! kaya i'm so relieved.. that i passed.. hazel also passed.. i'm so glad..

pero xempre, i'm still praying na sana pumasa si charm at si carla.. hindi ko pa kasi alam grades nila..

at xempre, start pa lang ito.. aanhin ang pagpasa dito kung sa next subjects to come naman..

again, THANK YOU, GOD! :)

for the love of Lolo.. instant blood donation!

2007-10-19T20:25:00.000-07:00

October 18, 2007

would anyone believe.. me.. makakita-lang-ng-dugo-nahihilo-at-ikahihimatay-ko-talaga me.. biglang nagdonate ng blood (obviously, it's my first time). biglaan as in hindi ko naman talaga balak sumama ng cavite and mas lalong hindi ko ineexpect na kukunan ako ng dugo (and pass the screening in the first place, haha, always thought i was anemic).

but since kakatapos lang ng operation ni Lolo (father's side) and needed blood transfusion, which he doesn't want UNLESS someone from our family daw yun blood.. and i happen to be A+ just like him.. eh d ayan.. my tita also donated blood the other day ago..

i have always asked God bakit sinabay Niya un ie27 finals namin sa pe2 scuba diving outing at batangas.. ito pala yun.. coz He wants me to help Lolo today.. hai, Lord tlga, creative.. We should really always believe He has plans, kahit super d natin makita at first!

and no, i won't pretend i was very brave.. may konting almost crying time pa ko bago tusukan.. hahaha.. ngayon ko narealize na ang OA ko.. kala ko kasi masakit.. hihi.. d pala..

at oo na, vain na ko, hanggang dun ba naman, HINDI na pinatawad ang camera.. hehehe..

and i want to add that IMO, dlsu medical center is probably one of the worst hospitals ever (okay, exagge) pero basta.. ang susungit ng tao.. ang quality ng facilities naman.. and from the guards to the staff and even the docs.. annoying tlga..

anyway, the night before that day, while I was taking a shower, I believe I had a nudge from God na sumama and I'm glad I did.. and since I've been asking for some chances to step out, kahit a little bit lang, from my comfort zone, I believe this was a chance :)

last hirit: I always thought na dugong-bughaw ako.. ndi pala! Eh dark red un nakita ko sa isang bag (450ml daw ata?) na kinuha sa akin eh! hehehehehe!

marvin, mariel, es13, ie27

2007-10-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

Air21 #12 - Marvin Cruz
last sunday, october14, i finally got to sit down and watch on TV a PBA game.. haha! and yes, there's a special reson why i did.. 'cause it's Marvin Cruz' debut game on PBA! Air21 vs. Magnolia.. 7 pts, 3 rebounds, 2 assists! not bad db?! and nagbabalik ang kanilang matchup ni LA Tenorio.. haha.. i think 2 of marvin's fouls was with LA.. :P

13th PBB Celeb Season 2 HM - Mariel Rodriguez
mariel rodriguez is now also a housemate of kuya! more of like kinidnap! hehe.. kasi she didn't know.. kaaliw.. ayan, it's very effective kasi i'm pretty much more interested now.. when i saw the batch of celebrities that will be entering PBB, parang d ko masyadong type. but since i like bubbly Mariel, okay na rin.. pero naiyak tlga siya kanina.. haha.. too bad d ko napanod ng buo..

ES13 - 3.00!
i passed ES13! thank GOD! super thank GOD! may final grade at first was 59.23.. not sure about the decimals.. kamusta naman un? 60 ang passing! and kinulit ko si Lord.. hehe.. I just know it in my heart God will do something.. yehey.. so the next day, sabi ni pat nag-curve daw ang trese, over 50 na lang ang finals imbis na 60 so ayun! 62 na daw ako.. pero ndi rin super happy kasi ndi ata umabot c charm.. aiun..

IE27 - 3 pages pala ang 4th exam?
naranasan niyo na ba magexam sa isang major subject.. at malaman nun binalik na ang exam na kulang pala ang sinagutan mong exam ng isang page??! waaahh.. oo, major subject.. haha.. 2 pages lang kasi nakuha ko, 3 pages pala dapat.. well.. hindi ko naman kasalanan kasi wala naman sinabi sila ma'am na "please check if your exam has 3 pages".. just a plain mistake.. so imbis na sembreak na ako ngayon, may follow-up exam pa ko sa friday.. but sabi nga ni charm, "at least may 2nd chance ka pa diba?" yep, again, i thank GOD for that chance! help me to maximize that opportunity Lord by doing good in that exam :)

MOON 01

2007-10-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

October 2, 2007

DLSU beats ADMU for last finals slot
http://inquirerbloggers.net/sportsaficionado/2007/10/01/archers-sew-up-win-that-matters-most/
-okay, i really got sad by this.. tama ba grammar.. hehe.. basta nakakalungkot tlga.. since UP got x-14.. ADMU ang next in line for the teams that I support in UAAP (kaya nga annoyed ang UST friends ko, esp Daphne, hahaha, kasi daw siya UP after USTe or something like that, haha).. mahirap man aminin but I agree with the two things that Coach Franz Pumaren, DLSU coach, said after that 5th and final ADMU-DLSU game (Sept. 30, '07) for this season.. 1) "They (Ateneo players) looked tired. 2) "This is the only case where two is greater than three." That is because, Admu won in the 1st two elimination round games, La salle won in their fight for the twice to beat advantage. Admu won in the first pre-finals game and since La salle has a twice to beat advantage, there was another pre-finals game, La Salle securing the slot to the finals. I'd just like to take note that Chris Tiu was actually the one who "sealed" the 3 wins that ADMU has against DLSU. Too bad his 3 pts shot didn't work in the last game, the most crucial of all. But I still admire him, hehe. Pero, sayang tlga. Oh well, like what Paula said, at least the teams in this year's finals are not the same teams from last year's. For the finals, I'm supporting UE!!! With their several "heartbreaks" they've been through for hardly being able to enter the finals in years, I think now is their time to shine esp with their 14-0 eliminations sweep. Plus, I very much admire Dindo Pumaren as coach.

Benjamin Abalos resigns as Chair of Comelec
http://www.philstar.com/index.php?Headlines&p=49&type=2&sec=24&aid=20071001195
- Like some Filipinos, I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm still waiting for further events and I just pray one thing, for the truth to be set out and for corruption to end but just some time ago, the Philippines was named as one of the most corrupt countries in the world today. It's very disappointing. I remember what Mrs. de Venecia (wife of House Speaker JDV), said that even the young get corrupted when they enter politics and that "It's sickening. Don't you wisk you have honest people and leaders?" Exactly.

Dennis Trillo - father of Carlene Aguilar's baby
http://www.igma.tv/story/2237/Dennis-Trillo-Baby-ko-naman-iyon
- This is what I was referring to when I'll probably include some showbiz news to MOON, haha. Quite a number of my family and relatives know that I have a huge crush on Dennis before, haha, especially when we were still a Kapuso fan in our house. When I knew that his girlfriend is/was Carlene Aguilar is also from UP, wala lang, natuwa lang din ako, hehe. But now, they already have a child kahit hindi pa sila married? When it comes to this, I know where I stand. It's sin to have sex before marriage. Sadly, one of the most common news and tsismis I get nowadays are this and that getting pregnant, and yes, unmarried. I do know that God's heart is breaking over this, especially that people seem to accept it as normal and "okay lang, ganun talaga eh".

Jovito Salonga resigns as SR member
http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/breakingnews/metro/view_article.php?article_id=88721
- I admire him for that. With what happened to Cris Mendez, a said victim of hazing of the said frat, the former Senate said that at the time he joined SR, there was no hazing as pre-requisite to admission and that his name was probably used in recruiting more members. He hopes that with his resignation he could also somehow alleviate the burden that the Mendez family is bearing right now. I guess Mr. Salonga really hasn't changed at all. He's still one smart man, just as years before.

$1.7 million for the University of the Philippines
http://services.inquirer.net/print/print.php?article_id=90946
- Of course I'd like to end things with a more positive note! Yey! Now at least we have funds now that the centennial celebration is coming very soon, and the UAAP hosting also! haha.. Lord, sana po meron din single person na magdonate ng $500,000 for Word of Hope.. just like what happened to UP.. hehe.. that someone donated the same amount, a UP alumni in America.
I always tell myself "Pag ako yumaman, I'll support this and that.." and yes, actually the list includes, UP, xempre naman, hehe. Kaya.. I should start studying harder.. now! haha.

MOON

2007-10-01T20:39:00.000-07:00

pakana ko.. MOON for My Opinion on (Recent) News..

(recent) - can include non or non-recent news..
and
news-hindi chismis! note, could also include showbiz news.. basta news na, so verified and true.. and not harming in any way.

i'd like to see a few, maybe years, from now, how do i think back then (which is now).. gets? aiun :)

define stress week(s)!

2007-09-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

'pag patapos nga naman ang sem.. :)
hmmm.. one year ago na pala since first time ko magshare sa cellgroup sa UP with yA friends.. alam ko about stress un topic na shnare ko eh.. in time nga for the near-end-of-sem period.. hehe..

sept 22 (Sat) - IE21 group report
23 (Sun) -
24 (Mon) - ES26 3rd MX (machine exercise)
25 (Tues) - breathe! just like you deeply inhale before deeply plunging into the deep water!
haha, waah, last pool session kasi ng scuba diving last wed!
26 (Wed) - PE2 Scuba Diving written finals (trivial? nah.. mahirap daw ito..=/ )
- IE21 2nd+3rd LE
27 (Thurs) - IE 27 3rd LE
28 (Fri) - IE 31 2nd LE
29/30 (Sat/Sun) - ES21 4th LE (sana saturday na lang! baka magpiano ako for the offering sa church on Sunday! play FOR GOD!)

oct 01 (mon) - OCTOBER na! hwaat!
02 (tue) - IE31 Project Presentation!
03 (wed) - ES13 4th LE

at after ng mga ito... finals na!!! tapos may MP (machine program) pa for es26, video project for ie21..
sana october 12 na ng hapon.. para tapos na lahat ng acad requirements (i think) for this sem.. tapos discovery dive na.. woooh! :D excited daw o, pero kinakabahan yan! hahaha!

pero before nga un comes super stress week!

but as always..

"I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!"
Philippians 4:13

thank you GOD! :D

0-14.. sweep! =(

2007-09-15T02:20:00.000-07:00

we made history.

only ADU, if i'm not mistaken, had a losing sweep in the men's basketball in UAAP (2000 and 2001, again, i'f i'm not mistaken).. but that was until 4pm today.

now kasama na kami.. yes, it's not just the up men's basketball who made a losing sweep this season.. it's the whole of UP.. walang iwanan syempre db.. pero nakaka-disappoint lang tlga na na-sweep kami.. for the first time.. actually, it won't be a surprise kung next year ay mahina pa rin kami, pero no more sweeps please.. unless winning sweeps (like UE this season!), why not.. hehe.. it's just overwhelming to think na all of the seven other schools had beaten us TWICE.. awww.. i was really hoping and praying na mananalo na kami sa ADU in our last game for this season, pero laki pa ng laman.. around 20..

but i do LOVE the boys' "I LOVE JOE" tag in their jerseys, showing their support for their coach, coach Joe Lipa.. since rumors are getting around that he'll be replaced after this season.. my stand? i do think na hindi naman kasalanan ni coach lipa na mahina AS OF NOW ang team, lots of rookies and the remaining are only sophomores so they do need TIME. sa mga nabababako ko nga, give them 2-3 years and we'll have a strong team.. kung pwede nga lang sabihin na next year, when UP will be the host, in line with our centennial celebration, malakas na tlga ang team ulit.. well, sure why not, practice na ulit sila ngayon dapat :) anyway, UP FIGHT pa rin! sna from UP ang maging Rookie of the Year.. maybe mike gamboa, mark lopez or soc rivera? :)

CDC na bukas! Lord, sana po makahanap ako tix for carla, sana maging perfect lahat ng stunts and buong routine and I pray we'll get the crown! yehey!

on a different and much brighter side, pasok sa Final Four ang women's basketball team namin.. yehey.. hoping and praying they'll get in the finals and win! yehey..

pahabol..
kainis admu!!!! natalo pa sa NU.. 88-96.. must-win game supposedly for them para makuha na agad un twice-to-beat advantage, ahead of dlsu, pero ayan, dahil dun, maglalaro pa cla against dlsu for that advantage.. eh tight na laban nnman un.. super small lang gaps nila for the past two games.. lagi na lang ganyan ateneo, right after talunin dlsu.. natatalo sa teams na most would assume kayang-kaya nila talunin.. ndi gumana ang winning shot sna 3pts ni chris tiu sa NU knna.. how sad.. hoping and praying na it'll work AGAIN sa dlsu :D

teams standing at the end of the eliminations:
UAAP 2007
UE 14-0
ADMU 9-5
DLSU 9-5
UST 8-6
FEU 8-6
NU 6-8
ADU 2-12
UP 0-14

(blog post in uaap school colors :D)

tickettttttttt!

2007-09-14T03:49:00.000-07:00

friday na ngayon.. 2 days to go before UAAP Cheerdance Competition 2007.. kasama ko manonood sina maxie, alip, grace at hopefully ayla din.. just as we had watched together for the past two years.. pero iisa palang ticket namin! accck! at hindi pa nagkakalinawan on our plans.. hai.. matuloy kaya kami? sna naman coz I really do miss them, super!!!!

LORD, kayo na po bahala sa tickets namin.. I know You'll supply them po.. just like the past two years.. I pray that the UP PEP SQUAP will take the crown this year (and the next, and the next.. etc!).

Yey!

ye-ey :)

2007-09-07T03:16:00.000-07:00

God is sooooooo good. ayan, meron na rin ako nun tulad ni maxie, hahaha, which is having your name posted in the blackboard for being one of the top scorers in the exam.. at ndi ito gE, it's ES! as in (the) Engineering Science, haha. pero, well, 21 iyan, hindi onse, dose or trese, haha, pero pagbigyan niyo na akoooo.. :)

kaya lang ang bad ko, kasi it took me some time before actually remembering to thank GOD! hai, sorry Lord, it was very ungrateful of me. God knows na kung hindi naman na move ng "n" times ang exam namin ay suuuper baba ko siguro because I know myself that I was unprepared should the exam have come through with its first sched. Kaya nga THANK GOD for His own timing :)

As I have read this week in the Bible, I think it was in Psalm, "My time is in Your Hands..." :)

nakakatuwa tlga si sir oca, my es 21 prof,.. kasi nag-congrats siya sakn nun pagka-pasa ko nun homework ko kanina, nakakahiya nga kasi feeling ko nakita niya na napabiglang ngiti tlga ako nun nakita ko name ko sa board *pagbigyan, super minsan pa lang kasi mangyari sakn ito ever since tumapak ako sa UP, haha*

pero syempre, after ng happy moment ko na iyon ay hindi na-late sa pagsunod ang pretty much "slightly nakakahiya" moment, haha! kasi nagbrowse thru c sir sa mga HWs namin at kamusta nman, nakita niya ang aking incomplete homework na minadali ko just a few minutes before the start of class. at tinanong pa niya ko, with the whole class to hear, "o ms. manso, di ba tatlo yung problems? isa lang ito", something almost like that. acck! sabi ko na lang "eh sirrrr.. nakalimutan ko po eh!" *super kahiya mode* jokingly he said, "burahin ko yung pangalan mo dun eh!" hahaha! kahiya, ano ba yan, banat na lang ako na "sir naman eh! first time na nga lang mangyari sakn yan sa buong buhay ko d2 sa UP eh!" kala mo matter of life and death na eh noh, haha, pero i think na-gets naman ni sir un point ko eh :D sabi pa nga niya, "ocge picturan pa natin", and i do think he's joking pero d niya lang alam, pinicturan ko nga, hahaha! Souvenir? :D

added chikka lang, by that time napansin ni "..." na un nga, na nsa board name ko, napatingin and nagcomment na "o, andun ka pala eh". wla lang, nyark, haha. katawa, kaka-mention ko lang kay another "..." in this same post, haha. kkwento ko ba sa knya? hmm, ndi na lang cgro.. kasii.. un :) okay, ako lang nakakaintindi, haha!

at xempre, may another "napapaisip" moment ako, pahirapan daw ba sarili, haha. kasi nun palabas na kmi nila charm and patrick ng es21 room, may comment si sir kay patrick tapos parang medyo damay ako and nagamit ko nnman ang aking "quote" kanina pero this time nasabi ko, "sir, second time na nga lang eh", ngek! inconsistent, wala lng, baka sabihin ni sir niyan.. oh well, never mind :D

here is maxie's own naman, well mas bigatin un sa kanya, haha, major nila and un ranking ay relative to ALL the math majors from their/our batch (or some may be from a diff batch) taking that subject. at second lang naman siya to "the" joseph r.c.d. :D i really love un post niya na ito, andun din sa list un names ni alip (as usual), and grace, all of them also my dearest friends in math! sooo proud of them!

okay, time to end it here. 3rd exam for es21 tomorrow! accck, Lord, help me to not be overconfident just because of this.. help ALL of us to do well tomorrow, yehey.. thank you po! =)

drowning... and being hoisted up.. still is..

2007-09-05T01:49:00.000-07:00

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"Keep me as the apple of Your eye, hide me under the shadow of Your wings." Psalm 17:8

September 4, 2007 -- it's all too much. I, myself, was even surprised by it. Unknowingly, or I probably knew it all along but I just kept ignoring it, I'm sad, I feel so much burden, I'm afraid, my tears had been at bay all along and the point comes when they cannot, no, they should not be kept any longer, even if I have a very hard time releasing them.

What started it? My mom's US visa having been finally approved. I have felt, even way before, that it would be approved. It was hard to pray to God, to verbally say what I want because I honestly don't know. A part of me (was it my heart? or my mind, I do not know) says that I should ask God that the visa may be approved for that is what my parents want but another part of me fears the thought of being left again, parentless, them being out of the country. But I do not want to be selfish, but the point is, alam kong malulungkot talaga ako. Is it a fault to be sad?

And the stream continued to flow. I surfed through friendster and came across, several profiles of people I know, most of them from church, from YA. Seeing their pics, everything else, I just realized more that I'm not a part of them. I'm so confused. I really want to be their friend, again?, to them but there's just really something.. Lord, what is it? I guess it's with me, nanaman. I don't know if I'm being sarcastic, yes, I am that confused. Honestly, if God will ask me for a gift right now, I'd surely say Christian friends, true friends. Not just, oh I don't know, ka-cell, I really don't want to feel na ginagamit ako. But they don't. But still.. Oh God, oh Lord, straighten my thinking.

Then I also saw some of my hs friends' profiles, even dap's, and seeing her pics with other people, with my other friends, ewan ko pero nalungkot nnman ako. I know, ang labo, maybe it just hurts me to see other people having their own lives without me. Oh I don't know.

Then the thought of the IE great outdoor picnic the next day, Sept5. There was a bit apprehension, baka ma-OP nnman ako, as usual, buti na lang I know Charm is also going, then lessen ang possibilities ma-OP. What brought me to almost tears was imagining, what if it a math event and I'm still with maxie, grace, ayla, alip and the rest of my math friends. I'd be surely looking forward to it, no fear or anything. But again, hindi nga eh, I have to face the present. Present is IE. I honestly want to be in good, friendly and no-OP-han terms with my batchmates, as I have posted before..

Then thinking of my longings for someone to love me, no, hindi boyfriend, but just really someone, a friend, someone I can completely talk to with an open heart and mind, someone who can hold my hands through such confusing times, it's too much. I kept on asking God "Is this what they call, one of those lonely nights?" I have kept on wondering, ano kaya kung may boyfriend ako, kunwari lang, would I not be going through such things? I know the answer is NO, that's not the answer. Maybe I won't be going through such things pero sooner or later I still will. Although sometimes, being alone is really, really hard.

As I realized that I have been good in wearing a mask to other people, nakatawa, mukhang very much okay, I become more confused. Kasalanan ko naman ata kung bat ako walang friend, na, yun na nga, kasi I don't open up to other people. I'm such an introvert, just as the endless surveys I have answered this part few days for a friend, and for a subject at school. So who's the true me? The introvert or extrovert one?

I really am having a hard time expressing myself right now, but I always have. Thinking of everything last night during my devotions time which I did at my parents' room, I just couldn't take it anymore. I willed myself to just cry it out but I became even more surprised when the tears just wouldn't flow. Nakakainis! I felt like I'm really lost. Pag-iyak na nga lang, ayaw pa. I just wanted to release it all so badly. I can't remember anymore what I've specifically prayed to God then, all I know was that I was reaching to Him. I was so scared of not even being able to feel that God understands, despite my own loss of understanding of myself. And when I felt HIM, that was when the tears finally came through. I don't know how long I cried, how much but the tears just came, and the sobs didn't hesitate to join in. In some point I looked for my Bible but still cried some more.

And suddenly, it stopped. Just as how unexpected I was when the tears came, it was just the same when ceased. It was sudden, actually. Thinking back now, I must have looked like a puppet, controlled but not by myself. I was crying in one second and in a moment, the crying stopped. I stood up and looked at the mirror, and wow, the redness and puffness of my eyes told me how much I've cried. I went to my room and then I heard the footsteps. I don't know and I didn't look if it was Ate Baby or Ezra (my parents were out) who climbed up, but I knew that God must have known that the last thing I need that time was somebody asking me why I am crying or even them having the knowledge that I had been crying.

In the next few minutes turned into hours, I was finally doing academic matters. Ang weird, even I think so now. When my mind starts to wander back to what I have been feeling, I quickly go back to the es21 problem I'm solving, as if avoiding another open-minding incident. When by past 1am, I have laid down on my bed, I couldn't help facing and thinking again of everything but again, the tears didn't come and this time, I was glad they didn't. When I heard my parents arrive by 2am, I was sure that I didn't want them to know that I was still awake since I was very much not in the mood to even speak but after a few moments, things start to sink in again and this time, the tears flowed, even with my eyes closed. I knew I was asking God some questions but I can't remember them anymore now that I'm thinking of it.

Suddenly, I had this, moment. A very bad one. Alam ko na gising pa ako nun eh but I felt like I couldn't breathe normally and I kept tossing my head sideways and a LOT of things, what I have all mentioned that has been burdening my heart, all came to me, and I felt like I was drowning in all of it. It was a scary moment, and I thought it would never end until in my mind (or did I even whisper?) JESUS' name and the verse "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" went through my head clearly, really clear it did. And the "bad moment" ended. I remember thinking "Lord, just promise me You'll never leave me and I know I'll be alright". Next verse that came just as clearly as the first one was "I will never leave you nor forsake you". Just as how "bad" and disturbing the first moment, there was this peace, oh so enough peace to finally calm my raging mind.

The next day, IEGOP, I was surprised when Charm asked me "umiyak ka ba kagabi?" and I thought I see her noticing my eyes. I answered with a sheepish "oo..", and she asked a bit slowly, "bakit?.." Without thinking or anything, I just shook my head with a slight shrugging of the shoulders. It's not just I don't want to tell her why but more of I couldn't bring myself to talk about it, so soon and so complicated even for myself. I was a bit relieved when she didn't push about it and the day was normal for us, minus my eyes which became better as the day passed.

Another episode of "drowning" came again in the latter part of the day, and this time, it was literally a drowning event during my PE Scuba Diving class.. I want to laugh about it however.. I just really couldn't. I was soooo frustrated with myself. With what I've gone through the night before, the last thing I needed was another disappointment for myself. Ang exercise namin for today was diving into the pool without wearing our BCD, mask, flippers, weight belt, simply said, with no scuba apparatus, but, on the contrary, we were holding it and a bit leaning on the air tank with our other stuffs on our left/right arm, with the air regulator positioned near our mouth (hirap mag-explain..). Simply said, it was hard because it was sooo heavy and we are nervous since we could probably drown and yet we have to wear everything underwater! And surface up wearing all the equipments already. We were told that we'll be allowed to have one last trial should we fail with our first try. I was on the second batch to try it and I was determined to do it, to be successful. The second after I heard Ma'am shout "Clear!", I jumped into the pool with everything in hand and I felt a sharp pain in my thigh and I felt that I couldn't breathe (even with the air regulator! ack!) and I quickly went up again, letting go of all my apparatus in the water and Sir Bert telling me to relax and just try it again later.. I was a bit disappointed but I knew I'd be allowed to try again for a second time. The second time, I just knew I couldn't fail or else it would be really embarrassing since almost everyone had done it already. Again, I heard the "clear!", jumped, and.. I don't know! I was still holding on to my BCD, etc., breathing through my air regulator, kicking my legs and I know I was supposed to go down but I was very, very uncomfortable, felt like I was really drowning (again, air regulator was still being used, grr) and I pushed myself up towards the surface and to the side of the pool and already Sir Bert was above me, telling me to "relax" and give to him my BCD and everything (yep, this time, I didn't let go of them in the water). It took me some time before relaxing, still holding tightly all of the equipment and then finally giving up the stuff to Sir. Ma'am came over to me and also told me to relax, relax while I tried to control my coughing.

She said, "It's okay. Not everyone can do it in their first time." Nagkatinginan kami ni Sir Bert and almost simultaneously, said "Eh second time na nga yun eh!" and Ma'am just laughed. It was soooo embarrassing. I was just... annoyed with myself! Bakit d ko magawa?? Acccckk! I hoisted myself up from the pool and stood to the side, my mind still thinking, still feeling very disappointed. Then Sir Bert stood beside me and asked (nicely, as always) what was my surname again. He has asked me this a number of times since the sem started (some of them also because of mistakes done during other pool sessions *blush blush, kahiya tlga!*) and I said, almost shyly, "Manso po" and he said something like "Ah sabi na nga ba or Oo nga pla" and I couldn't help myself but ask "Sir, babagsak na po ba ako?!?!" and he laughed and said "Ah, hindi pa naman". Waaahh! I'm so disappointed talaga.. Ako lang talaga ata hindi nakagawa.. ay hindi, meron din isa or 2 ata, pero syempre! Gusto ko magawa sana! Nag-pray naman ako right before jumping into the pool and yet.. well, just as Abbey said, it was probably more of a psychological thing.. kasi kailangan tlga may willpower or mind power to convince yourself to push through even if you felt like dying already! haha! haha nga ba? ah basta.. kasi ganun din nangyari sa amin the other week before and it was easier to push through with it since we had a buddy (it was our first deep dive into the pool).

..Talk about disappointments.. Lord, hoist me up from all these.. don't allow me to drown..

And again, God really makes sure I know He's here for me..

Bianca Gonzalez finally posted her answers to some of our questions (see her blog!) and she answered mine!! Yey! I asked what scripture does she look up to or rely on when things are really, really hard for her? Her reply was Philippians 4:13! Yey! That was just exactly the verse God gave me last night!
And when I read again my Lolo's email, it was about fighting the good fight!
And when I also read today's email from "Purpose-Driven Life" Devotions, it was about being confident in God's truth. Guess the primary scripture? Yep! It was also Phil. 4:13!

I drowned.. will still probably do.. But I'm being hoisted up by Someone.. and He is Jesus.

Difference between Focusing on Problems and Focusing on Solutions!

2007-09-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

Below few are some small example & case studies of "Difference between
Focusing on Problems and Focusing on Solutions "

Case 1

When NASA began the launch of astronauts into space, they found out that the pens wouldn't work at zero gravity (ink won't flow down tothe writing surface). To solve this problem, it took them one decadeand $12 million. They developed a pen that worked at zero gravity, upside down, underwater, in practically any surface including crystaland in a temperature range from below freezing to over 300 degrees C.

And what did the Russians do...??

They used a pencil.

Case 2

One of the most memorable case studies on Japanese management was thecase of the empty soapbox, which happened in one of Japan 's biggestcosmetics companies. The company received a complaint that a consumer had bought a soapbox that was empty. Immediately the authoritiesisolated the problem to the assembly! line, which transported all thepackaged boxes of soap to the delivery department. For some reason,one soapbox went through the assembly line empty. Management asked its engineers to solve the problem. Post-haste, the engineers worked hardto devise an X-ray machine with high-resolution monitors manned by twopeople to watch all the soapboxes that passed through the line to make sure they were not empty. No doubt, they worked hard and they workedfast but they spent a whoopee amount to do so.

But when a rank-and-file employee in a small company was posed withthe same problem, he did not get into complications of X-rays, etc., but instead came out with another solution. He bought a strongindustrial electric fan and pointed it at the assembly line. Heswitched the fan on, and as each soapbox passed the fan, it simplyblew the empty boxes out of the line.

Moral lesson : Always look for simple solutions. Devise the simplest possible solution that solves the problems. Always Focus on solutions & not on problems. At the end of the day, what really matters are HOW ONE LOOKS AT THE PROBLEMS… good perceptions can solve tough problems.

blogthings: more

2007-08-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

now i do think this is me! (well, that's what happens when you find the perfect choice of answer (among the given ones) after each question :D the descriptions fits, although i was actually surprised with the title, that i actually do leave a good impression? hmm.. that's nice.. :)

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize.Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do.If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does.
Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image.Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener.The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffirstimpressiondoyoumakequiz/">What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

What's Your Personality Type?

hmm, pretty much agree.. although quite some surprised me :)

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
In love, you express your emotions through actions.Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well!
At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.
How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

What's" Your Personality Type?

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

For some time now, I have the feeling that God wants me to use my hands - literally - for HIM. There's my piano, and I've been thinking of learning deaf language for some time now.. and more actually.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are artistic, intuitive, and inspired. You have good people skills.
Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.
Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.
Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoyourhandssayaboutyouquiz/">What Do Your Hands Say About You?

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

before taking this test, i know the answer already.. because it's not GOD's time yet! for fun (and curiousity, acck! bad! sorry Lord :) ), I answered it anyway. mejo may konting katotohanan na rin, hehe.

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catchProblem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why'>http://www.blogthings.com/whydontyouhaveaboyfriendquiz/">Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

since i've ALWAYS loved chocolates (no matter how big they contribute to my gain in weight nowadays.. haha) the white ones aren't my most favorite though, but still very much included :D

You are White Chocolate

You are White ChocolateYou are sweet, caring, and truly very innocent.Whether your naive ways are a bit of act or not, people like to take care of you.You are a quiet flirt, and your power is often underestimated!

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofchocolateareyouquiz/">What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

Just right I guess :D :D

You Are 69% Feminine, 31% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyoumasculineorfemininequiz/">Are You Masculine or Feminine?

blogthings: what should you study?

2007-08-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

cool things to put in your blog - got this site from key-si :D

Your Learning Style: Expressive and Tenacious

You love to learn about new cultures, ideas, and theories.
You Should Study:
AnthropologyCounseling EducationEthnic StudiesForeign Languages and LiteratureHistoryLiteratureMusicPhilosophyEastern Religion

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoustudyquiz/">What Should You Study?

ngek! naliligaw ba ako academically? haha! i hope not! i'm pretty interested in these courses, enough only for a GE or minor subject though :)

dapat ito ako oh.. ndi dahil sa qualities ko, ngaun, but more of dahil sa course ko, IE :D

Your Learning Style: Logical and Organized

You are a very quiet but very curious person. Often times, your intellectual interests *are* your friends.
You Should Study:
AccountingClassicsEconomicsLawLinguistics MarketingSalesSecuritiesStatistics

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoustudyquiz/">What Should You Study?

or this one, ngek, hehe

Your Learning Style: Practical and Rational

You aren't afraid of hard work... or learning something completely on your own.
You Should Study:
AccountingBusinessCivil EngineeringFinanceHealth administrationLawMedicine

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoustudyquiz/">What Should You Study?

i'd like to be this one.. and it has engineering in it! :D

Your Learning Style: Innovative and Independent

You are determined and driven. Confident in your abilities, no field is too difficult for you.
You Should Study:
Astronomy BiologyChemistryDesignEngineeringPhilosophyPhysicsPolitical Science

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatshouldyoustudyquiz/">What Should You Study?

the others are soo not me eh :)

take the test yourself! :D

first scuba dive (pool)

2007-08-22T05:54:00.000-07:00

august 22, 2007 - first time ko (and for the most of my PE2 scuba diving classmates) bumaba ng at least 10 feet below the water surface of our pool at diverep and stay there for quite some time, breathing! haha, therefore, underwater breathing using scuba diving equipments xempre. nga lang, puro tiles lang andun, haha. our exercise was having to bring to the surface somebody unconscious. between me and my buddy, i played the victim's role :D
before kasi, with us wearing and using the scuba equipments, hanggang water surface and a little below lang kami. today, hanggang tiles na tlga :D

it's just the first time for most of us na maranasan what "ang SAKIT ng tenga ko!" really meant because of the pressure of the water. at as in masakit tlga! even when you've equalized already, ndi pa rin mawawala but it gets better when your ears are slightly tilted and massaged *a little* just like what sir benedict did (while we were underwater!) haha. he kept on asking us (again, underwater) if we're already okay and comfortable using the "okay sign" and i kept on pointing to my ears. xempre gets na niya na yung sa pressure nga.

sabi nga ng buddy ko for today, jean (a fellow eng'g student, just to share :D), will-power was also needed "para di sumuko! kaya ko toh!", haha. naisip din pala niya un, feeling ko kasi ang galing2 na niya eh, hehe. natuwa naman ako at i can relate.

looking forward to more dives! lalo na sa discovery dive.. oh God, sana po tlga I can come, even sa Clean-up Drive next month. not only to enjoy myself and see and admire and help (in keeping clean) Your creations underwater :) yey! :) Thy will be done! :)

ana likes to accdg to google

2007-08-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

read from ivy's and marianne's blogs in multiply.. xempre gaya nman ako kahit may ie27 exercises pa akong dapat tapusin.. got curious lng kasi :) and nakakatuwa naman eh, haha!

Directions: Go to Google and search "*enter your name here* likes to" [include the quotation marks]. Type the first ten things that come out.

Ana likes to play - hehe, oo naman. all work and no play makes jill a dull girl, remember? (kaya lang minsan ako nasosobrahan sa play at kinukulang sa work :D)
Ana likes to talk about her friends. - sure, i'm proud of them, my friends :D but i talk about them to certain people only, hehe, kc ayoko ng may nang-iintriga about them
Ana likes to expand upon that base by using traditional Mexican ingredients in new and interesting gourmet combinations - whaat? about food, sure i like to eat. mexican food? sure! pero mukhang cooking ito, ndi eating, so not agree that much, haha, d nga ako nagluluto eh, willing matuto in the fuuture :D
In her free time, Ana likes to hang out with her friends and family. - yep, just perfect
Ana likes to watch live Broadway musical clips on YouTube - haha! never tried. maybe will, why not, but i've watched a lot of musical stuffs in youtube :D
Ana likes to ride in her spare time - ride as in drive? i drive but not just to spare my time (mahal na gas ngaun! ha!)
Ana likes to run outside - i don't, i mean run :) although lately i've been having the urge to run, jog, etc! super no exercise for some time!
Of course Ana likes to shop so this was just her thing - hehe, no, that's not "my thing" but i do like shopping, esp when i have the money
Ana likes to hang out in the living room if I am there - and who are you exactly? =P but yes, at home, lagi ako nakatambay sa sala.. i guess not exactly tambay because I usually am doing something, if not reading, studying, playing the piano, watching tv, etc
Ana likes to watch live Broadway musical clips on You Tube. Is this true? We don't believe it. - haha, naulit, at may extension pa. whoever that "we" is, you're pretty right :D

4th yr hs

2007-08-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

just a survey i read (and answered na rin myself) from eloisa, a schoolmate nun hs, posted in friendster

1.What section were you?
> corinthians
2. Who was your adviser?
> ms. navarro! (grabee.. memory loss na ko.. had to text paula papara maalala.. only the face was pasted sa utak ko... hehe!)
3.How many were you in one class?
> 39 ata
4.Who was your seatmate?
> jeralyn, sya lang kasi nasa corner ako, hehe
5.Still remember your english teacher?
> Ms. Bruno..
6.What was your first class?
> Physics..
7.Who was your best friend?
> daphne anne.. still is.. :) and jjade! :)
8.Who did you like?
> nung 4th yr? cno nga ba.. ai, joke, no comment
9.Made friends to the lower years?
> okay lang, but not as much as others, hehe
10.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend?
> nope :)
11.How was your class schedule?
> mga 7am-5pm ang classes.. plus CAT training pa, usually up to 6pm
12.Made any enemies?
> don't think so :)
13.Who was your favorite teacher?
> sir alquiza
14.What sports did you play?
> waala ü never the athlete, me, hehe
15.Did you buy your lunch?
> yep, kahit lagi kaming nagrereklamo na nakakasawa na, haha
16.Were you a party animal?
> no, just occasional parties with good, close friends :)
17.Were you well known in your school?
> not that much, maybe kung iisipin ang acads and CAT, doon, ok lang:) dun lng, haha
18.SKIP SCHOOl?
> hardly, mga once or twice, hehe
19.Did you get suspended/expelled?
> never (nope, never regretted being a good girl, hehe! ü)
20.Can you sing the alma mater?
> yep! paulit-ulit ba naman :) sa flag ceremony.. CAT.. programs..
21.What was your favorite subject?
> math, all thru high school.. sna hanggang ngaun, hehe,nagshift out nga out of being a math major eh :P
22.What was your school's full name?
> St. James College of QC
23.Did you go to the dances?
> yep, never missed one ata
24.If you could go back in time and doit all over, wat would you do?
> be mooore friendly, haha, a little more lng pla :)
24.What do you remember most about 4thyear?
> being very comfortable and at home with my classmates :) na sila2 din naman halos since 1st yr.. really love them :)
25.Favorite memory in 4th year?
> lahat.. pero kung pipili tlga.. struggles namin as a class..esp during competitions, super nakakastress and mejo nagkakainitan..and YET we survived (and on TOP that is! yey!) i'm proud of havingthem! another is yung mga "story-telling" ni ate ruffa sa classand making us all laugh, haha, i really admire her for that
26.Worst memory in 4th year?
> ung isa at un isa.. hehe.. ang 2nd ay nung nagkalat ang ano sa aming class.. i really felt bad that time..
27.Where did you go most often forbreak?
> break nung 4th yr.. sa classroom lang pag recess, or kaya mag-cr..15min lng eh.. pag lunch, canteen :)
28.What did you do on the last day ofschool?
> nagpakain sa classmates, ehehe, for the first time :) last day ba un? bsta last few days un eh.. grad practice..can't remember the certain last day..
29.How was your graduation?
> that was when i felt both really happy and sad at the sametime, too much of both that i never thought possible. really, reallyhappy coz i made my mom, my parents proud and super sad coz highschool is over and we all have to move on with our lives w/o eachother after 4 years (pano pa kaya un iba, lalo un mga loyalty awardees??)
30.Got any honors or special awards?
> yep, thank you God :)
31.Did you like 4th year?
> definitely!

pro na ang aking 09!

2007-08-19T02:55:00.000-07:00

09 ü

mga text (GM) from key-si :) --bestfriend of 09 na binilhan ko ng mini jerseys some time ago kaya she has my number, hehe--

aug19,07_12:22pm
Pgdasal nyo welcoat ako. para up boys! -marvin. Kng saan man sya mpuntang team, let's all pray na makakuha sya ng mgandang contract. ü

reply ko (yup, isasama ko tlga ito, haha):
yup, God-willing, sna tlga =)

1:11pm
Hahaha.pwd!pero sna welcoat,png 12Th pcla eh-marvin. t0ld him n may name na ako pra sa tandem nla ni c0rtez, 'MC squared' f evr alaska sya ü

5:10pm
Nakuha na c marvn!!! 14th pick air21!!! Upd8d kc ako ni jean! Marvns been upd8ng her. Thank God! Up fyt!

reply ko:
wow.. thank God nga ü salamat dn sa pgupdate.. mjo mas mtgal kc sa abc5..=)

reply nia:
Mtagal tlga jan! Haha

right after her 3rd text, medyo hindi ko na magets mga bagay2, actually, since la naman ako alam sa pBa and even the rookie draft, just aware before pa na nagpadraft na siya kaya wla na siya sa UAAP,.. kaya ako ay tumawag sa aking basketball encyclopedia na friend.. haha.. c joanne pauLa.. at ayun, as usual, pinaintindi sakn ang mga bagay2 :)

at matagal nga ang abc5.. 6:15pm na at ala pa rin.. ata, hehe. last kong tingin sa tv ay mgngsspeech pa lang..

thank God he got picked! happy for marvin :) i do hope na, God-willing tlga, his contract is good. ü baka ito na ang start ng aking pagbantay sa pba.. haha.. baka lang :) kung ndi man, i'll get updates from joanne :D

haaaabol: air21 din c jc intal and doug kramer (mga blue eagles in uaap).. power team na nga tlga ang air21, sabi ni paula.. haha..

marviiiiiiin! :)

2007-08-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

"matapang talaga itong batang toh eh"

--comment ng commentator (redundant! redundant! haha) on marvin cruz, rookie camp, aug 17, '07

i super miss seeing marvin on court, at lalo na while donning a UP jersey! pero ganun tlga.. life goes on :) i'm happy he's preparing to enter the pro league :)

i hope he gets on Alaska, "balita" ko dun daw niya gusto, from what i learned from a very reliable source, yey. i don't care kung ano man mga sinabi ni paula sakn dati na mahihirapan c marvin pumasok sa team na un kasi daw dami na lead players dun or something? (yup, wla ako alam sa pba :).. ) just hoping for the best for him, yehey! iba tlga ang first.. kumbaga sa "first love", c marvin ang aking "first favorite basketball player" tlga, hehe, kasi as most people know, la naman ako hilig sa sports, sa UAAP lng tlga, thanks to ayla kambal :)

my bear (FYI: a Christmas gift from my

bestfriend when we were in 1st yr HS :) )

wearing my mini jersey of marvin cruz

mid-sembreak? :)

2007-08-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

the first time classes got suspended for this school year because of bad weather was just last week ago, august 8, a wednesday, which extended to the following day thursday. it was because of the two storms "Chedeng" and "Dodong". Naipit ang Friday na may pasok, and the following 2 days were weekend (grammar, grammar, hehe).

And for this week, hala! instant 6-days vacation, starting last august 15 (a wednesday again) and that night, they (NDCC, if i'm not mistaken) made an early announcement that there would be no classes the next day since papalakas ba daw c bagyong "Egay". Well, most see it as a wrong move decision since most people (count us in!) did not even experience a drizzle of rain. (or drizzle lang ba? ah basta, ambon, haha). Personally, okay lang sakn na ala pasok because that day, Aug16, is my mom's birthday kaya nakapagcelebrate pa kami, thank you God :)

and as most predicted naman, by 11pm of thursday, classes are also suspended for friday at this time, yep, may ulan at hangin na since "Egay" now promoted itself to a "super typhoon".

well, dahil sa mga lumipas na bagyo ay namove na for the 4th time ang aming es21 exam, hehe. pretty much an advantage nun una since more study time kaya lang ngayon eh mejo naglleak na utak namin, hehe! joke! but fellow students would know what i mean :)

kaya 6-days vacation ay dahil wednesday to friday (3days) + weekend + monday, now a holiday due to Ninoy Aquino Day.

naiimagine ko na ang pag-iisip ng aking mga profs, haha, esp sa MTh subjects ko.. late na kami sa topics..

on a more important issue, kawawa din naman un mga laging binabaha.. hai, I saw videos of homes flooded up to waist level and up. I pray na sana hindi naman sila magkasakit or worse.

on a lighter note, sure, we (students) got our rest pero i, myself, am feeling the "slight" disadvantages brought about by this unexpected "vacation". una, walang baon, hahaha! kala mo serious note na eh noh. totoo nman eh, bawas sa dagdag pocket money sana :) on the serious side, nadedelay na ang schedule of activities, requirements etc sa academics.. baka magkamake-up classes pa.. aack.. at baka mas umikli ang aming sem break.. mas gusto ko sana na mahaba ang sem break syempre, like most students, esp those in college, lalo na at lagari nnaman kami by the end of finals week.. haiii..

oh well, enjoy (actually "USE" dapat, haha) the time we have in our hands.. kaya eto ako ngayon.. nag-oonline (what's new? =P)

last notes!
~this time reminds me to thank God at nakatira kami sa lugar na hindi bahain. thank you Lord!
~another thought brought by something i read for ahjh's (IE batchmate in UP) blog.. ang lakas nating mga Pinoy kay Lord noh? Just a couple of weeks or more ago, the country is on a "dry spell" and that we needed rain so much bago pa matuyo ang dams.. and now we've got what we prayed for. :) sana d naman sumobra para ndi mag-overflow ang dams.. again, let's pray for it. God is really GOOD and ALWAYS hears us nga db? =)
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habol, sayang nga lang at nasuspend (last thursday) at masuspend tomorrow ang UAAP games, haha.

uaap ramblings 01

2007-08-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

ang saaaaaaad... wala na kaming chance sa final 4..

ahaha.. wala pa nga panalo eh, final four pa iniisip ko.. eh kasii naman.. syempre, lahat naman gusto pumasok sa final four db..

kakatapos lang kanina ng 1st game ng 2nd round.. UP-NU.. since 0-7 kami nun 1st round.. i was really hoping na bagong round, bagong team and bawi time na.. ngunit hindi.. at 19 pts gap pa.. hai.. okay lang.. ok nang magkaganito ngayon at full-blast bawi next year.. yes! hehe.. dapat lang, host kami eh! :D

still love woody co.. oh wow, ayan decided na ko. 16 is my new 9.. ahaha.. pro naka-5 fouls siya kanina.. oh well.. at speaking of marvin, nsa game siya knna watching with abby santos. hindi ko nakita, kasi nman nag-iba na ng view un cam pagka-look-up ko sa tv (i was doing my es21 probset kc while watching :D)

nga pla, may nagustuhan nman ako sa game knna.. c boom gonzalez and tj manotoc ang commentators.. yey.. wala lang, i admire them kc, the way they do their work :D naaaliw ako manood lalo pag sila nagcocomment.. :D at feeling ko, kahit no wins pa km so far, kampi sila sa UP, ahaha, feeling ko lang ah, ang dami kasi nilang good comments on up, the players, etc.. compared sa kabila.. hihi..

ngayon ay main event na, patapos na rin actually.. UST-DLSU.. i don't know kung san ako, haha.. dapat USTe, kasi andun lahat ng dear friends ko.. pero for some reason, basta. haha, i'm bad.. si daphne (my bestfriend studying at USTe), nagulat nga sakn kasi ndi daw pala ako supporter ng school niya habang siya daw 2nd ang UP sa sinusuportahan na school at UAAP.. haha.. ndi nman sa ganun.. ewan ko ba,.. pero nman, i do admire salinggawi dance troupe.. pero greater admiration for our pep, haha..

at c coach pido ang aking favorite uaap coach! kasi siya lang nakita ko na ngumingiti pag may nakikita siyang magandang move by his players.. samantalang un iba, never mo makikitaan.. don't those players need such from their coach every once in a while? hehe.. pero pinakanagagalingan na coach kay dindo pumaren of UE.. since 1st yr pa ko.. kasi dat time puro rookies cla yet galing ng team.. tapos ngaun 7-0 cla so far.. kahit gano nman kagaling players, they still need a good coach db? :D

anyway.. natawa tlga ko kay charm.. katawag lang niya kanina upang tanungin lang na "nagpakalbo pala la salle?!". ahaha, as in yun lang itinawag niya, kulit. sabi ko "oo kaya, antagal na, right after their LOSS to ateneo", oo ateneo ko dun :D pangalawa ateneo sa aking sinusuporthan sa uaap (talagang ganun eh.. at d lang dahil kay 17 ha.. nyark, stop na ana.. yehey). naku, sa upcoming 2nd round of admu-dlsu.. sna ateneo ulit.. bka magpakalbo din mga admu pag natalo.. ick.. ayaw.. papangit siya.. hehe.. ai cgro ok lang na ganun, at least mababawasan na rin ang aking paghanga sa knya.. whatever :D ah basta, hindi tlga bagay ang kalbo kay cholo villanueva.. hehe.. ndi nman kc tlga.. :)

yup, ramblings 01 lang ito.. most likely may susunod pa.. haha..

habol: whhaaa... overtime pa ang ust-dlsu!!..
habol ulit: wala na.. 5 pts na lamang.. 1:15 to go..
last habol: eto ang nanalo.. hehe.. 73-81.. trivia.. uste daw never won against la salle.. since.. i forgot, haha.. basta 0-15 now 1-16.. congrats :D

she shifted out.. is she shifting back in?

2007-08-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

the answer is..... no.

but i think about it every now and then and everything, everyone related to it. even if i know na, "no" talaga, i won't be shifting back in there.

pero kanina lang kasi.. for the first time this year.. and for quite sooome time.. I literally said (whispered, actually) to myself "Gusto ko na bumalik ng math..." (may tears effect pa yan, hehe..) Pero joke lang yun, joke in a way na, alam kong hindi ko gagawin. Just very much brought along by grace's text message (will write about that sooon)..

as to my course, i can say i have no regrets on shifting.. it's exactly what i've wanted in exchange of math.. d ko sinasabi na nadadalian ako sa IE ngaun.. duh?! kung alam nyo lang, haha. but it's good so far and GOD is good, i'm on regular standing (oh God, help me maintain this). i really won't go back to my old course because it is, up to this point i think, the only reason why i left. (no one needs to remind me na it's my first course choice, haha). simply said, kung dati ayaw ko sa na un inaaaral sa math, i don't think i can say the same sa iE. finally, msasabi ko na rin un sinabi dati nila maxie at grace, "la na ako maisip na ibang course na gugustuhin kong lipatan eh." just one thing, Lord, please help me po finish this course.. on time. :D

the ONLY reason why I even think of going back is i miss them.. my friends there.. the people I can call my friends in UP.. ngayon ako pinaka-nag-long.. why? kung kelan 2nd yr ko na sa eng'g? dahil ba never na ko pumupunta sa math building (and i actually don't have any reason to, with my math series done).. or dahil hindi ko na classmates ang dear blockmates/closest friends unlike last sem na classmate ko sila in physics 72 which is an everyday class?

maybe.. but I guess i do know what makes me think of them.. actually long for their presence the more this sem.. 2 reasons.. my IE majors and their blogs.. oh d ba, two unrelated stuffs..

iE majors.. esp like sa exam kanina, lahat sila like me, IE students, all 3rd yr, mga kabatch, with the same 2005 student number.. has a goal of finishing the same courses, have the same profs, same topics, and every once in a while, like during exams, we fill up the entire eng'g theatre.. yet i know so few of them. ai joke, i know quite a number of them, almost a half of them being my orgmates. i can give you some of my batchmates' first names.. and it ends there. worse is, less than a half of those i can give the names to you don't even know me, whether by name or face. sounds like home?.. not for me..

and i find myself, again, thinking.. "pano kung mga 05 math majors andito?" i'll be very much at home with them. i find myself remembering just exactly how it felt to take those math60 and math63 eXams and feel that they are with me.. na i'm not alone in this one.. while exactly the opposite ang naffeel ko sa kabila.. "kanya-kanya".. (maybe not for them, i know.. yes, i still have an open mind..)

i can't blame them! naman.. it's not their fault we're not close.. but it's neither mine din naman db??!

i'm not saying i'm not thankful for those few people that I can call my friends in eng'g.. GOD knows how much I thank Him for them.. i'm a total loner lost in eng'g without them. more on them soon :) and xempre meron din naman na friendly na mga kakilala.. though we're not friends, doesn't mean some of the can't be friendly :)

what's with my blockmates' blogs? i read them every now and then.. just as they view my online accounts as well :) wala lang, nakikita ko lang in their blogs how much each one is involved in the others' lives, lalo pa't ngayon, mukhang super close na ang aking blockmates with their 3rd yr of being together having started. and this i can say hOneStLy tlga, i am happy for them.. sna ksma ako dun! hehe.. but the best thing is, i know they want me there.. yey.. :) that i learned that these past few days, weeks from them.. thank you Lord tlga for yM, multiply, friendster.. cellphone.. :)

i also very much appreciate maxie and grace (and even phia, jodi, jeanine) efforts to reach out to me every now and then.. musta na.. ganito ganyan.. hai, super more of them soon ulit.. :) ayla kambal is super busy as always and i truly understand. i know my kambal.. and more of her soon din.. :)

end notes.. sna.. magkaroon na ko ng more friends in eng'g.. lalo IE i mean.. i don't need adjustments, i've adjusted to being an engineering student for the past year.. it's not a weakness naman to say na you need more friends di ba? it doesn't mean you're not happy with those you have neither, definitely not. i'm just tired of the dead silences, awkward hi's and hello's when i'm with the other people..

just so not me. and don't want to be. :)

** Two are better than one. Ecclesiastes 4:9**

*But those who recognize their need for others find help and encouragement*

Beyond The ‘Here And Now’

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Looking Beyond The ‘Here And Now’ by Rick Warren

“We fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18, NIV)

Rick Warren joins us for the next few days --

As we’ve been discussing, history is his story – that is, God’s story. From the book of Revelation we know that God’s global mission will be accomplished, and someday the Great Commission will be the Great Completion. In heaven an enormous crowd of people from “every race, tribe, nation, and language” will one day stand before Jesus Christ to worship him.

We can experience a little of what heaven will be like when we shift our thinking from the ‘here and now’ to the eternal. To make the most of your time on earth, you must maintain an eternal perspective. This will keep you from majoring on minor issues and help you distinguish between what’s urgent and what’s ultimate.

Paul said, “We fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18, NIV)

So much of what we waste our energy on will not matter even a year from now, much less for eternity. Don’t trade your life for temporary things. Jesus taught, “Anyone who lets himself be distracted from the work I plan for him is not fit for the Kingdom of God .” (Luke 9:62, LB) And then Paul warned, “Deal as sparingly as possible with the things the world thrusts on you. This world as you see it is on its way out.” (1 Corinthians 7:31, Msg)

You’ve probably heard the expression -- “You can’t take it with you”—but the Bible says you can send it on ahead, by investing in people! The Bible teaches, “By doing this they will be storing up real treasure for themselves in heaven—it is the only safe investment for eternity! And they will be living a fruitful Christian life down here as well.” (1 Timothy 6:19, LB)

So what does this mean?
· Throw off anything -- that you allow to stand in the way of your mission. What’s keeping you from being a world-class Christian? Whatever it is, let it go: “Let us strip off anything that slows us down or holds us back.” (Hebrews 12:1, LB)

· Store up your treasures in heaven (Matt 6:20-21) – Jesus taught you should use the time, talent, and resources that God gives you to bring people to Christ. They will then be friends for eternity who will welcome you when you get to heaven!

· Send it on ahead – What can you do today to invest in people? The investment may be your time, your talent, or your treasure. God guarantees it will be the best investment you make – an eternal investment that will also help you to live “a fruitful Christian life down here as well.” (1 Timothy 6:19, LB)

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